Whew!

Well, thank God that's done! I hate tests of any stripe, even if they are over material I've actually studied. And I just had a nasty ol' midterm in my Microsoft Office I class. I think I did pretty well, and I'm just really happy it's all over. Now I get to stress over my Legal Writing midterm, and the fact that I just totally forgot the appointment I had with my shrink yesterday. Oh well. What's done is done, and can't be changed. Guess I'll have to call Sherida (his office manager) to apologize, and then hope she doesn't charge me for the time anyhow.

It's a beautiful day today, with a gorgeous clear blue sky. I hadn't really thought about it till today, but living in a place where it rains so damn much totally makes me appreciate a sunny day. I've never felt so ecstatic about a cloudless, translucent sky as I did this morning on the way to school. Even though I was running ridiculously late and was dreading my test, I was still humming a happy tune as I drove. And heck, it isn't even close to spring yet!

So hopefully my new ISP will have their servers up and running by this afternoon, so that I can install my cable modem and ditch dial-up (at least for a little while). I continue to amaze myself at the progress I have made emotionally, and yet things like the aforementioned server problems can still send me into a tizzy. As long as I have complete control of a situation, I'm just dandy. Take that away, and I go from zero to bitchy in 2 seconds flat! Like last night...I was freaked out about the server problem, as well as my test, and the fact that I had to leave a mess of cabling and boxes lying around in my normally-spotless living room, and that my PDA didn't seem to want to hot-sync correctly so I could add more MP3s to my SD card. I guess all of this is really underlined by the fact that I'm nervous about what Dad would say about my spending the money for cable Internet and TV, when I'm not even supposed to have the TV service! But I'm keeping scrupulous track of what I spend, and none of his money will be going towards this. So...a small helping of guilt, anyone?

Guess I'll come back and post more when I can start adding photos and links and more cool randomness.

Back in black...

I sometimes wonder why I feel so crummy about things I can't control. I guess that's pretty much it in a nutshell; I can't do anything about them, so I stew instead. I mean, I'm the girl who almost had to leave class to throw up when John Kerry conceded the election to the current commander-in-thief. So today's fresh hell is that I may only have two credit hours next term. It'll be Torts, so it'll be fun, but damn! One hour, two times a week, when it takes me almost that long to commute here is not my idea of a great time! *grrr* Oh well, at least I am friends with the head of the paralegal program here, so I get nice updates regularly on how to best satisfy my legal aspirations.

Things are looking up personally, though. I have a lunch date this Saturday with a sweet mensch of a Jewish guy I met from an ad I posted to a singles' site. He digs Rush, he's a raving liberal, he works with the state legislature....what's not to love?! But he shares the same first name as my son. Could be a dealbreaker, should we ever get to the super-nekkid-fun stage. Guess we'll find out more about each other this weekend. And he's gonna call me tonight! Whee! I have to admit that this dating thing can be muy interesante.

And then of course there's Michael. Always there is Michael. What do I say about somebody I have known for going on 10 years? He helped me keep my sanity through a really icky marriage, loves Rush just as much as I do, and thinks my kid is really great. But this is no Jerry Maguire, sports fans. He's mostly unemployed, enamoured of some pretty screwy spiritual and pseudo-scienctific ideas (I think), and anal retentive to the nth degree! And I love him. And he loves me. And he told me that he's still in love with me...oy! Where did I sign up for this life, and how can I get a refund?

I guess I've fallen victim to the ancient Chinese curse: "May you live in interesting times." The politics these days are abysmal, I'm poor and struggling, I'm trying to juggle two guys and my kid and my two little girl mousies, and school isn't quite what I pictured it to be yet. But it's also almost spring, this morning's pea-soup fog has burnt off, I have a PDA that keeps my life and plays my favorite MP3s, I've just about made up my mind what cell service I want to change to, and I'm losing weight. I even have a brand new bicycle that is just begging to be ridden on my days off this weekend! So maybe life isn't so damn bad after all.

O Brave New World...

....that hath such people in't! Here I am at school, blogging, when I should be driving home. Oh well. This is all pretty new to me, but writing isn't. I figured I ought to jump out of my comfort zone and into the 21st century. So here I am, for anyone who can read this and actually cares. :D I'm Jennifer, I have a kid and a car and two pet mice and no job. I'm going to school full-time to become a paralegal (courtesy of the 1st National Bank of Dad). Thanks, Dad! I know you won't ever read this, but I love ya just the same, and appreciate this 3rd chance more than you will ever know.

Dunno if I'll do anything earth-shattering with my humble li'l blog, but it'll be my extra-spiffy journal for awhile, and if anyone wants to comment, then I guess they can. For now I shall post and then go home. Gotta get oil for my sad little Honda and stop by the bank on the way home. Next time, I'll start work on this thing in earnest, I think.