New jobby-job stuff...

So I'm about half an hour away from an interview for a position that will give me my weekends back.  Weekends, people!  Those days called 'Saturday' and 'Sunday' that normal folks don't have to wake up at 4:30 am for!  WooHoo!  Hopefully I will find out before the day's out whether they're going to be offering me the position.

I've also sent an "application" to a Twitter list of characters for the hit Fox show Glee.....basically, they're looking for folks to tweet in the roles of characters, so I asked to be the new girl.  Hope to hear back on that one pretty soon, too.  Along with that, I have a new friend who comes complete with many of the same issues I have and an idea about a year-long blog to do something about those issues!

I'm up to my eyeballs in new stuff to do and I couldn't be happier about.  Wishing me luck, cuz it's time to go talk to HR.... :-D

Writing for fun and profit (for real!)

So I seem to have stumbled across a couple of amazing opportunities to stretch my writing talents... One is certain and will involve self-improvement. The other is not so certain but could actually mean a paycheck!

A month ago I was feeling lousy that I'd missed the Glamour essay contest deadline.  Now I'm feeling like I'm just getting started on something so much more interesting. Hope to be better for it in time for the next essay contest!

Writing for fun and profit (and practice!)....

So I'm putting another post in today so that I can start building a habit.  I need to make myself write once a day for the catharsis and so I don't lose the skill.  I'm aspiring to enter an essay contest with a deadline of mid-August, so I need to get off my ass.  Writing here will help too.

I'm headed home for now -- early again because things are very slow at work.  *sigh*  I know it will get easier when more of our customers are home after summer break is over....it just doesn't help anything NOW.  Ah well.

More later, possibly about my Lion upgrade as it happens... :-D

Plus cà change, plus c'est le meme chose....

...the more that things change, the more they stay the same!  (Nice private Rush joke for myself, but also a pretty accurate observation about my life in general...)

So, what's the same? Jordan, my car, my kid, my Facebook page, my dad being a crotchety old guy who watches way too much Fox News.

What's different? My last name as far as the government's concerned, my job (still tech support, but for a company that makes video game consoles instead of Apple), my Google+ page, and my extended family.  That is to say, the father I thought I'd never hear from EVER gave his contact information to my mom, and now....

....I have my daddy back.   I haven't spoken to him regularly since I was about 3, and I was always told that he didn't want a girl.  That appears to have not been the case.  Talking to him has also revealed some things I really wish I didn't know about my mom.  And about my grandmother.  Oh, but it also means that I have the little sister I'd heard about when I was younger but never got to really hang out with -- and a stepmom who's really cool so far.  It just feels a bit odd to be doing things at age 36 that I should have been doing when I was 4 or 5 or 6.....

I guess it'll all work itself out in the end.  In the meantime, I have to quit dragging my feet and go to the Social Security office to put in the paper work for my name change and then see if I can take care of DMV today too.  I'm just quivering with anticipation, lemme tell ya! :-P

One amazing week...

So Jordan and I have just had a couple of firsts. The most recent one is that we've spent time together every single day for seven days. It started last Sunday at lunch, then Monday night he came to fix my dad's computer, Tuesday he watched Idol and Glee with me at my place -- then kidnapped me for the day he had off on Wednesday, then we had stir-fry and worked on my dad's DVD-burning issues on Thursday, and last night was 5 Guys and movie night. It has been absolutely wonderful and amazing and I'm already totally spoiled for having him in my living room to greet me when I walk in the door. The other first was that this past Wednesday was the first time we had a day together with precisely *nothing* to do. No deadlines, no people to see, no places to go or anything to do except enjoy each others' company. It was just positively luxurious.

Right now he's at home, having a well-earned sleep and I'm at work being very bored, as it's awfully slow. But I'm a happy camper nevertheless, because I can't see any way this isn't just about perfect. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. :-)

More changes afoot...

So it's been since the end of January that I've posted here. I've been pouring all the creativity that would have gone into my blog into a tarted-up Facebook page. But I've been enjoying it, as I have friends on Facebook that I know in real life (work, friends, my son, Jordan...) I'm also enjoying building an amazing relationship with Jordan, and realizing that he's rapidly becoming more than just my "boyfriend". He's friend, confidante, lover, technical resource (almost a colleague!)...and could maybe even be family. I'm presently wearing a ring on my left hand that belonged to Hubie, his grandfather on his dad's side. There aren't any diamonds, so nothing's official, but he told me he's regarding it as a promise. We have 9 months to keep waiting, watching, working and loving.

He has my son today, just for fun and bonding and cool geeky guy stuff like that. Can't even begin to say how this warms me from the inside out. Just wish my dad wasn't so damned cynical about the whole thing. *sigh* But I also know I need a couple more friends in my life; "besties" that I can lean on for companionship and fulfillment and not expect Jordan to be all that to me. He works so hard every day, not just at work, but personally to hold down the physical pain he's in every moment. He hardly ever lets it show, but last night was pretty hard for him. It hurt me to see him that way and not be able to really help, but I think just being there was something. And as much as I'm not wild about sleeping with him in my dinky full bed (his queen-sized bed is much more comfy!) I wouldn't trade nights like last night for anything.

I think I'm going to have to make an effort to keep better track of things for the rest of this year. I don't want to miss any of this adventure, and a running account of it will prove an invaluable resource. :-D

What to say when there aren't any words...

Tonight hasn't been horrible or anything. In fact, I watched the encore presentation of the Apple iPad announcement tonight with my son. It was pretty cool, and I now have another gadget to covet. *sigh* Last night I was with Jordan, curled up in bed with him while we ate amazing Thai food and watched the State of the Union address. I really enjoyed watching my guy with my *guy*, and then laughing through American Idol, and Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog.... (why didn't someone turn me on to that sooner?!)

I went home relatively early last night with my Sesame Street Bedtime Storybook from Powell's, and actually got my dad to read me my favorite of the stories from when I was 5. *hee!* Then I talked to Jordan after his X-ray and poor busted toesie....

....and now tonight I have no Jordan. Dammit. I talked to him for about 5 minutes tonight after work, but the poor guy was so beat after not sleeping last night that he just collapsed into bed around 7 and hasn't been around since. It sucks. But who is around, you may ask? Michael. He tells me that he thinks we could still be friends, but when I talked to him last he couldn't understand why I was telling him about Jordan. Oh, and thinking I would be jealous of his new girlfriend. Of course, I wouldn't be human if I didn't acknowledge that I miss the sex once in awhile. That said, I don't miss it enough to ever put up with his crap again. I also don't miss that it was so infrequent and one more thing that we fought about.

What I really miss is a chance to fall asleep in the arms of someone who cares for me. Me, for myself, not what they want me to be. Not who they think I am when I'm really someone else but they can't see it. I think Jordan may actually be that someone, and I'm so scared I'm gonna fuck it up that sometimes it makes me nauseous. And this Sunday he's gonna meet my dad and my son. I laughed it up a bit on my Facebook page, but this really has me kinda spooked. I mean, those two can be a handful for their own separate reasons even for me, let alone a perfect stranger!

Anyway, I'm just bummed out right now that I have no one to talk to and it's late and my schedule is all up in the air and....*sigh* God, I must sound so whiny and bitchy. I'm getting spoiled now with Jordan, and used to having my own way. He's so sweet and accommodating to me, and I have my only-child "me me me" tendencies anyhow....

So for now I'm gonna go to bed and console myself that tomorrow is Friday and I have the weekend off, and so far my schedule for next week appears unchanged. Hopefully car show date will still be on for Saturday. I need my fix!