So it's been since the end of January that I've posted here. I've been pouring all the creativity that would have gone into my blog into a tarted-up Facebook page. But I've been enjoying it, as I have friends on Facebook that I know in real life (work, friends, my son, Jordan...) I'm also enjoying building an amazing relationship with Jordan, and realizing that he's rapidly becoming more than just my "boyfriend". He's friend, confidante, lover, technical resource (almost a colleague!)...and could maybe even be family. I'm presently wearing a ring on my left hand that belonged to Hubie, his grandfather on his dad's side. There aren't any diamonds, so nothing's official, but he told me he's regarding it as a promise. We have 9 months to keep waiting, watching, working and loving.
He has my son today, just for fun and bonding and cool geeky guy stuff like that. Can't even begin to say how this warms me from the inside out. Just wish my dad wasn't so damned cynical about the whole thing. *sigh* But I also know I need a couple more friends in my life; "besties" that I can lean on for companionship and fulfillment and not expect Jordan to be all that to me. He works so hard every day, not just at work, but personally to hold down the physical pain he's in every moment. He hardly ever lets it show, but last night was pretty hard for him. It hurt me to see him that way and not be able to really help, but I think just being there was something. And as much as I'm not wild about sleeping with him in my dinky full bed (his queen-sized bed is much more comfy!) I wouldn't trade nights like last night for anything.
I think I'm going to have to make an effort to keep better track of things for the rest of this year. I don't want to miss any of this adventure, and a running account of it will prove an invaluable resource. :-D
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